Setting the ground work

I just decided to start a new blog. My last one was very down and depressing. Now that I have moved and my life is so much better I decided to start a new one where I can say what I want and be fresh and new, just like my new life.

We moved about 9 months ago. We have moved several times in the past several years. The longest we lived somewhere was 3 years. I was miserable and things were all wrong. Although in that house is where I owned my very own coffee shop which brought me tons of joy. We sold it to a great company not far off that also ended up closing it's doors because of the un-supportive community. I didn't feel like such a failure when not even a well established and well known local company couldn't make it. We have moved 7 times since then (in just over 4 years). The shortest we lived somewhere was just over 2 weeks. We refer to that one as The Spider House, and I hate spiders. Need I say more?

I am married with 2 kids and love my little family dearly. We are very earthy and normally very active with outdoor activities. My personal favorite activities are gardening, caring for my dogs, cat and chickens, oh and of course my children. I love cooking home cooked meals and trying new things. I have always been referred to by friends as a hippie and love that. I love the earth and all it has to offer and believe that living as organically and natural as possible is a must. Antisocial is the best word to describe me, up until this last move. I just realized I still enjoy hanging out with friends and still love music. I think I lost quite a bit of myself and recently started remembering who I am . I love pottery and playing bass guitar. I haven't played in several years but I still get a thrill out of hearing one play in a good song or seeing one propped in a store window.

So that is a very abbreviated low down on me and my situation.

With this past move we are buying a house. When we moved here a lot of other things changed. I feel that, especially with the rainy winters here, I have had a long time to think about the changes I need to make in my life and people I need to keep or cut. Some things high on my "just learned" list are; say no and don't feel bad, I can't possibly make everyone happy, set healthy boundaries and hold to them, live in the present, don't fear the past or the future-neither of them can be changed for now, healthy relationships aren't draining, it's okay to like the things I like, and love without fear. I am struggling with that last one but am working on it. So lots for me to take in but so relieving to live by those and feel like I am my own person.

So with all this new change I am finally happy. I have been able to surround myself with people I love and who make me happy. Life is full of so many things to be happy about. Even tiny things can bring joy if we let them. So here is to new beginnings and being the happiest I have ever been.